Why do people live their lives walking around waiting for the next bad thing to happen? I'm married to one of them. I have lovingly bestowed upon him the title, "Captain Negativo," because "something bad is going to happen, I just know it!" As much as I love this man, he is a "half empty" kind of guy. It's almost cute the way he dwells on the possibility of impending doom...almost. It's more exhausting than cute.
So to my surprise, I received the following text from the Captain, "I'm having a good day, so I thought I'd pass it on to you. :)" He even included an emoticon? What?? Did he win the lotto? Nope, he was simply having a good day and thought it was worth sharing with me. See? He DOES love me. He knows that the little things in life make me the happiest. Sharing a smile or a funny joke can change your whole mood.
Yes, I know I'm guilty of being a Negative Nelly in this blog but it's my way of sharing my inner dialogue with you. If we are being completely honest, I too have problems filling the "cup" more than half way but I fake the crap out of my cup filling abilities. Some may say I'm lying to myself, but I swear it works. For the most part, in real life I try my best to be a positive light among the "Captains" of the world. I shine so bright to balance the dark so I don't live in the shadows. The shadows are a cold and gloomy place and I don't need to go there.
Being positive takes a great deal of effort but after awhile you start to believe it. It's not just in the words you choose, but actions as well. I tell my daughter all the time to watch her behavior and sometimes quite frankly, I need to watch my own. There are many days that I want to punch a loved one right in the mouth, or slap the snot out of a stranger but again, it's a decision. A hard one, but it's a decision. Sometimes it's a daily struggle. I wake up and have to decide whether or not I'm going to let the shadows win.
Today they've lost. But the day's still young. :)
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